The story that almost everyone that i know wanted to know but i have been keeping it silent. I didn't have the strength to share it.. emotionally and mentally. I wasn't ready.
He was born 1st March... my water broke at 5:30am..i could not believe it was happening. I was nervous but excited at the same time. Finally i get to meet my lil man.
On my way to the hospital, we stopped at mcdonald for my morning breakfast.. sempat lagi, LOL!
I was admitted at 7am.. Doc came and start her routine check. I was dilated at 2cm, my son was still floating and has a cord wrapped around his neck. I was advice if he doesn't engaged by 11am , i will be induce. My heart sank.. cos i didn't want any intervention for this pregnancy. No pain killer, not wanting to be induced..everything was to be natural.
But i guess, my lil boy has his own plan on how he wants to enter the world. Like everyone says.. we can plan but at the end of the day .. we just have to go with the flow when it comes to pregnancy journey.
Throughout the hour, i was having massive contractions but still no signs of him coming down and engaging. 11am came by, with heavy heart..i accepted the injection. Again doctor advice, by 5:30pm if he still is floating, i will have to go into operation theater. I was nervous, sad but hopeful. With that, i was even more determine to do what i know to encourage him to engaged. Jon and i did everything, every single exercise that we know to help our boy. We both exercised, did our squat, breathing, dance...everything and anything to encourage the lil one inside.
5:30pm came...Doctor came, checked on me ... 2cm and still floating.. i was sad. Doc asked us to consider Emergency C sect..after much discussion with Jon and my doc.. at the end, i said yes to the procedure...
Feeling scared, nervous, not knowing what will come .. i was pushed into the OT floor. They prepared me for my epidural procedure and operation. I hate needles... injection is one of my fear.. my BIGGEST fear... so you can imagine how nerve wrecking it was for me. I had Jon, 2 nurses and the anesthetic to help me, trying to calm me down and distract me. I am so glad, it was over in less than 10 mins. To be honest, my anesthetic was so good, i didn't even feel the needle going into my spine! Not a pinch..
By the time i was in the theater, i was half awake, half asleep.
It was weird experience for me. It felt like i was floating, i know what is happening around me, i can hear the doctors but i don't feel nothing. All i felt was coldness..i was shivering,
My poor husband panic when he saw me slowly drifting.. closing my eyes.. he kept asking me to stay awake, stay with him. I could hear him calling the anesthetic for help.
I was awaken by the scream of my baby boy, met him briefly and i am back into my slumber land.
1 hour later, i was wheeled to the ward, back to my king and my prince charming.
It wasn't how i planned my birth to be but i am blessed. I am blessed with a healthy baby boy, blessed with a loving husband who was always by my side and most importantly..blessed that we three made it!
Liam - 2 months old.
